reverse the chemistry ♥

UPDATE. UPDATE. UPDATE.

2009-04-25T22:13:00.004+08:00

To my dear contest winners:

AIREN - I cant find your button on your page. :(

NISZKE - I cant access your blog. :(

KYM - Your button doesn't appear on your page. :(

I WANT TO POST YOUR BUTTONS ON MY NEW PAGE ALREADY, BUT I'VE ENCOUNTERED THE SAID PROBLEMS. So please, just e-mail them to me at tricia.fmct@yahoo.com

Thanks!

And I want to let everybody know that I will be closing down this site anytime soon. I realized that I can't manage multiple sites at once.

This might be my last post for this site. Take care everyone!

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE WINNERS

2009-04-19T14:41:00.003+08:00

Contest result was posted today at 1 in the morning. I was too excited to let everyone know who won that's why I really stayed up that late. Haha. Anyway, why did they win? Here...

CHARMOII [ most kawaii page ] - she has the highest number of votes. 41.84% :)
AIREN [ 2nd place ] - she got 14.33%. :)
NISZKE [ 3rd place ] - she got 12.56%. :)
KYM [ most unique page ] - just look at her site and see what i mean. :)
SAFIENA [ most interesting post ] - everything she writes are worth reading no matter how long or short they are. :)
QI WEN [ loveliest stuffs ] - she shares lots of her works to her visitors. :)

They won fair and square. Sorry to those who didn't win. There's always a next time. :)

WINNERS: DONT FORGET TO POST YOUR WINNER BADGES SO THAT I CAN POST YOUR BUTTONS ON MY SITE ALREADY. TAG ME WHEN YOU'RE DONE POSTING. :)

Love lots,
Tricia

two bad news

2009-04-12T20:04:00.004+08:00

sorry for not updating this site that much. i got overexcited with my new page that i edit it almost everyday. sadly, (bad news #01) somethings wrong with it right now. maybe jazzy is having problems with his domain. *sad * but i know it will be fixed soon.

anyway, (bad news #02) classes will resume tomorrow. now, i am sadder. i am too lazy to go to school. i have to wake up early again. *sigh*

gotta go now! i still have to work on my thesis. bye!

[ edit ]
this is just a short note. so i just edited this post. hihi. anyway, layout changed. what do you think about it? comments please. AND OH, MY NEW SITE IS BACK!! YEHEY! CLICK THE LINK ABOVE. IM OPEN TO LINK EXCHANGES!
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love lots,
tricia

I have my own subdomain

2009-04-09T21:35:00.006+08:00

I finally have a subdomain! Yeeeey! I think I'm getting used to WP already and FTP. Though I am still in need of tutorials. PHP is kinda tricky, well at least for me. Haha. So anyway, this is my thank you list

Jazzy - for hosting. and for being so nice to me. i will thank you forever, i swear i will.
Eunice - for entertaining my questions.
Charmoii - for encouraging me to put up a WP blog.
Claire - for the theme i am currently using.

Anyhoo, my new page is still under construction. I'm still working on it. But you can visit it now. Tag me and comment on my post, okay? Thanks!

CLICK HERE.

With all sweetness in my soul,
Tricia

Quotable Quotes

2009-04-08T19:24:00.006+08:00

"If it didn't really matter,
you won't be spending so much time thinking about it."

"Years from now
all those crazy nights
or all those times that made us laugh till
our stomachs hurt but
i'll always remember that you were the ones there."

"Trying to forget someone you love
is like trying to remember someone you never knew."

"There's always gonna be that one guy
that no matter what happens between you
two, no matter how long you go without talking, you never stop loving him."

"I think that the only reason why people hold onto memories so tight for so long is because memories are the only things that don`t change when everything else does."

"I don't want to close my eyes, because you might leave when I'm not looking. But I'm afraid to keep them open, because I couldn't stand to watch you walk away."

Those are some of the quotes that were forwarded to me through SMS. Have you even wondered why many people love reading quotes? Before, I do. But now, I understand why. Quotes tend to touch our sensitivity with their messages. If we get our hearts broken or when we are happy, we like to read stuffs that we can relate to. Sometimes, it makes us feel better.

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Anyway, I haven't finished my paper yet... Okay, scratch that. I haven't ~~finished~~started my paper yet. Call me lazy and I'll say you're right! Haha.

You can still vote for me! Hit the link above! Thanks!

Comments are highly appreciated.

Loving you forever,
Tricia

I have the most boring life in the world.

2009-04-08T16:20:00.003+08:00

When I was a kid, I am always excited about summer because I get to play outside all day or watch cartoons all night without being sent to bed because I have to go to school the next day. But now, I HATE SUMMER. Not really hate, as in, hate. I just hate how boring it is. Or is it only my summer that is boring? Haha. All my todays are just the same with my yesterdays. [Oh, except yesterday because I got to hang out with my buddies. ] I am really bored to tears.

I didnt do anything productive today. As always, btw. I cant wait to go to school next week. Yes, I still have summer classes. It's fine, though. At least I can be with my college friends. Plus *cough* I have allowance *cough*. Hey, I just realized that I have to work on a 15-page paper and it's due on Monday. Gahd. I am too lazy to do it. Ugh. I guess I have to go now!

Sorry for all the ranting!

By the way, VOTE for me! The link is above this post. Thanks!
Comment on this one, too okay? *hugs*

Current Mood:

With all the love in the world,
Tricia

Friends for keeps. :)

2009-04-07T21:05:00.005+08:00

My friends just left. We had so much fun! It's really nice hanging out with the best people in your world. We reminisced our highschool days over vodka. We bonded as if we haven't seen each other in years although we were just together last week. We are always like that when we see each other because things aren't the same as they were before. We dont study in the same school anymore. We have new group of friends. That's why I am really happy when we get to see each other and do the same old stuffs. My friends are my greatest possessions. I wont trade them with any guy, I swear. I am looking forward to another day like this.

And oh, we played HOTEL626. It's fun to play if you're with your friends rather than playing it alone because it's kinda scary. Haha.

ANYHOO, thanks to those who dropped comments on my previous post. I appreciate every word. Do comment on this one, too. Okay? *hugs*

"if you laugh really loud, talk really close and you don't care if your hair is a mess, you are probably with your friends. "

Love lots,
Tricia

I've always been a good girl

2009-04-06T23:57:00.005+08:00

I think I'm a pretty good girlfriend. Nagger, check. Always interrogates, check. Tantrums-baby, check. But I've been very loyal and sweet to him. How can he be cold to me sometimes? And why the hell do I get the feeling that he loves DOTA more than me. Arggh. I hate him like a pimple! I do. I really do. But just for now. I will tell him I love him again tomorrow. ♥

"Don’t you hate it when you cry over the things you don't want to lose? When you were a little girl, it was that a special toy. Now? It is that special boy."

Geez. This is such a stupid post. Sorry.

OH, BY THE WAY. DO ME A FAVOR. CONTINUE VOTING FOR ME AT VHINE'S CONTEST. I KNOW, I KNOW, I WONT WIN. HAHAH. BUT STILL, PLEASE VOTE FOR ME. THANKS!

EDIT EDIT EDIT [ APRIL 7, 2009 - 1:49PM ]

You can now put comments on my blogposts! The link is down there. Please do leave comments before leaving and I will thank you with all my ♥. *hugs*

I think I am not really a blogger

2009-04-06T16:09:00.005+08:00

I dont even know what FTP is. I need help. Hahaha. Eunice is to envy! She has an adorable site and that is because she knows how to work with FTP.

Haha. Special mention talaga dito si Eunice because her page is one of my most favorite pages.

Matuto din ako nun. I need all the tutorials I can get. After my summer class, I will definetly look for the best FTP tutorials.

OH WELL, NANGANGARAP LANG.

Drop all your boundaries and meet him halfway.

2009-04-06T12:07:00.003+08:00

I am broke. I only have 200php on my wallet. I want to go out with my friends but I dont know where 200php will take me. Well yeah, it's enough for one meal in McDonalds (which is btw, my most favorite fastfood in the world) but what if I see something pretty in the mall? I CANT BUY IT BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE MONEY. I swear, I will be driven crazy. But hey, the mall isn't really the first place that came into my mind. I just wrote it first but what I really first thought of is Mamus, Katipunan. Yes, lots of you dont know the place. Hint: It is where people have fun while getting drunk. It's not really one of my favorite places but if you just want to chillax with your friends while having a couple of beers, it's the place to be. Oh well, I dont have enough money to go out. So I'm going to stay home and bore myself to tears. My friends are going to come over tomorrow here at my house, anyway.

I am such a nonsense person. I am sorry. Hey hey, I got to go. I need to cook lunch for myself. Yes, again, I AM HOME ALONE.

OH. Try playing HOTEL626. Click here. Thanks to Eunice for the link. *hugs* Btw, the game is up only from 6pm - 6am. But you can register anytime.
THREE WORDS: Dont play alone.

I should stop chasing pavements

2009-04-04T21:01:00.005+08:00

"I maybe single for now but my heart will forever be taken. I am officially reserved. Wait until my time comes."

Technically, I am single. Emotionally, I am taken by that special boy. If I would host a contest for the title "My most favorite person", I need not to register to PollDaddy and have people vote for the winner because I know who's going to win. Him, my most favorite person in the planet. ♥ We were together for 7 months. 7 happy months. I am very grateful because he came into my life. I dont want him to leave. I never wanted him to leave. But I guess that's life. Things won't always go your way. Sometimes, we have to let go of the people we love to prove that the feeling is true. ♥

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I am such a melodramatic person. Beg off. This is my blog anyway. Haha. Veering away from melodrama... I'd like to remind everybody that the first contest voting will end on April 18. And I have just started another contest. Registration is open.

Hugs & Kisses to everyone.

Nothing is more disgusting than a boy who lies & hurts a girl just to prove he's a man.

2009-04-04T01:03:00.004+08:00

I HAVE A NEW LAYOUT. Tell me what you think about it. TAG ME!

Thanks to my ever sweet fellow Filipina, KYM for the layout. Yes she made this layout for me. Visit her and add her on your links. Click here. Tag her and link exchange with her okay? She writes nice blogs, I swear. I told her that already even before she created this for me so don't tell me I'm just telling this because she made me a layout. Okay? Haha.

Have you read the text on the header? I wrote that. Kym designed it. Haha. I think the text is nice. Do you think so, too? Haha.

Anyway, what could he be doing right now? He doesn't text me. Sorry if I talk about him all the time.

I have to go now. Mom's here and she brought something. I should know what that is.

barbed wire fences won't keep me from breaking through. i swear i will for you.

2009-04-03T19:33:00.007+08:00

He's in his graduation ball right now. And I dont f-in know if he's dancing with a girl or just about to be. I'm trying to put that thought out of my mind but I cant help it. I can picture him looking in her eyes, dancing to the sweet melody of a love song... ~~making out~~. Oh good Lord, dont do this to me.

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Anyway, I am sooo looking forward to seeing the new layout a fellow blogger is making for me. I'm not yet revealing who she is, though. You will know once I have installed the layout already.

CONTINUE VOTING FOR THE MOST KAWAII LAYOUT.
THERE'S A CONTEST UPDATE. SEE CONTEST SECTION.

2009-04-02T20:42:00.003+08:00

I miss my kuleet, big time.

"Too much togetherness can be the reason for break – ups. Spending time part gives you new stories to share and helps you grow as a person. When you see each other little less, you value your time together more."

-- eh naman ! pag hindi nagkikita, nakakabaliw !!

I have a new URL Address. :)

2009-04-01T21:25:00.002+08:00

PLEASE READ !

Thanks to those who voted for me in Vhine's contest. I do need more votes. I am nowhere near being the winner cause I only got 17 votes. Some has 40+. Haha. But it's okay if I don't win. At least some supported me. THANK YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. :)

FEW NOTES:

1. PLEASE RELINK ME.
I have a new BLOG URL. http://fenella-hiccup.co.nr/
Thanks to co.nr for the free domain.
Tag me when you're done relinking and I will thank you forever.
2. I will be changing my layout this weekend.

3. Continue voting for the most kawaii layout. See contest section.

4. Link exchange is currently OFF.

5. I will be removing on my list those I've had link exchanged with who aren't that active.

That is all.
GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

2009-04-01T09:22:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU!

NOTE: I will be changing layout on Saturday. :)

That same special boy...

2009-03-30T18:45:00.003+08:00

From cheesy to melodramatic. Stop reading.

That boy I was talking about on the previous post is the same boy I will be talking about here. But now it's the exact opposite of what I said before. Yes, I am still insanely in love with him but I guess I shouldn't be. We are two different people. And sadly, we can't work out our differences. I am trying. Really trying but I guess it takes two "TRYING PEOPLE" to make this work. One isn't enough. I don't want to prolong the agony so I will just veer away. It's the only way left that I haven't tried to do. So I'm doing it now.

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Anyway, this is an "OH MY GOD" first day of summer class. i think i'm going to enjoy all 3 subjects ,though. Sociology, Politics & Gov't and Psychology. I find them interesting. Downside: LOTS OF HOMEWORKS. Actually, I shouldn't be blogging right now because I need to do some research about the problems of the society, roots and branches of psychology. And also to define lots of terms. And make a 3-paragraph essay about the poverty in the Philippines. And yeah, I also have to read Articles 1 & 2 in the Philippine Constitution. OH MY.

You're still reading ? Oh, I love you.

CONTEST UPDATE

2009-03-29T20:36:00.003+08:00

VOTING STARTS ON MARCH 30, 2009

Many of you have voted today already. I am sorry but those votes won't be counted because on my last update, I said voting will start on the 1st of April. But since I can see that you guys are excited to support you blog friends, I will open the VOTING TOMORROW, MARCH 30th.

NOTE:

Bloggers can vote only once a day. But if you have multiple blog sites, you can use each of them to vote. But only one vote per blog site everyday.

That one special boy..

2009-03-28T23:48:00.006+08:00

This is going to be a cheesy post so you better stop reading now.

There's this guy. He swept me off my feet. Cliche, I know. But he really did. He's different from all the guys I know. He's the only boy who can make me inhale and exhale and smile and cry all at the same time. Yes, I really become that crazy because of him. He's not the typical guy I go for but he took me out of the stereotypes I love. I've been in love with him for almost a year now and I don't get tired of it. I don't know what he did to me that made me like him... that made me fall head over heels. It's really weird and funny how he brings back my insanity and how he brings out all the stupidity in me. But it's with him I see myself with 20 years from now. I see his cute eyes on the face of my future daughter. I can picture him teaching his son, our son, how to play the guitar. I can see a photo of us together at the table beside our bed. It's him. Him. Him. Him. It's him who I want to be with forever.

I sound so much in love and happy yet still I am kind of hurting. But to hell with hurt & heartbreak. When you love a person, you don't care how much pain he has caused you because you always keep track of the times he said he loves you and made you feel that he really does.

ARDIE ♥

Hey! I told you to stop reading. How come you made it this far ?

Note: I made the image you see above. No stealing.
Credit to wubzchu for the texture.

There's a first for everything

2009-03-28T16:08:00.007+08:00

I've seen lots of contests hosted by different bloggers. So, ~~out of envy~~, I decided to put up my own contest. Everybody who has an active blog site can join. For more info, see CONTEST section.

Note: Don't forget to post the contest banner on your pages within 24 hours after joining. IT'S A MUST. Failure to do so is subject to disqualification. Thanks!

Now, prettify your pages before the voting starts! Good luck!

aside from hosting my first ever contest, i also joined one hosted by vhine.

Shopping for label. Shopping for love.

2009-03-27T17:17:00.005+08:00

i shopped today. :) don't get me wrong. it's not that i have all the money in the world. hahah. dad gave me money for my needs and yes i ~~want~~need new clothes. [ this icon is so annoying. lol] summer class is about start so i need something to wear. not that i don't have anything to use if i wont buy. let's just put it this way, "OF COURSE, EVERYONE WANTS NEW STUFFS." hahah. it wasn't too many, though. like what i've said, few pieces. anyway, i made a new graphic for my affies. here's the latest...

codes can be found in STUFF section.

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i'm still praying that summer class won't start next week.
i am so not ready to face school works yet.

anyway, i think i'll make some icons again.
bye for now !

he WAS the song in my heart

2009-03-26T16:43:00.004+08:00

These are songs that my ex-boyfriend wrote. He is my first love. And yes, first love dies. :))) Not that he's literally dead. It's just that, I have moved on... I have FINALLY MOVED ON. YEY ME ! :)) He asked me to. He wanted me to. The last time we talked, he told me, "Mag move on ka na. Ayoko kasing mabulok ka dito, Tricia." Haha. Ang pangit pakinggan but I know he wishes me well. Kaya salamat.

He's really good in composing songs. I remember the one he wrote for me last 2006. Sometimes he would even ask me to give him the poems I wrote and he'll turn them into beautiful love songs. :) We were so in love back then. But time really changes everything. Things may have not worked out between us but he left me with good memories. I still thank him for the joy he brought about. And for the love and care he showed me. I can say he's one of the reasons for what I have become. He wasn't my first boyfriend but he is my first love.

Who is he? I'm not telling. Hint na lang. His name starts with an "A". Surname ends with "Z". Haha. Anyway, I just want to post these because I find them really nice. Tell me what you think. Hm, he didnt put the title eh. So I dont know. Here...

SONG #01

you lift me off the ground every time i think abut your smile

you got me mesmerized by every word you say

i don't know how but you got me in you hands

in everything i do you're inside my head

i didn't know God made someone so perfect

now i'm lost in your eyes

got to admit, you got me tied up completely helpless

no way out, no i wont even dare to escape

i cant seem to figure out why im smiling

now that im just staring at your face

watching a movie

i cant seem to figure out why im happy

now that im just staring at your face

drinkin your iced tea

you mean so much to me

i wont regret to lose it all for you

wont help let them hurt you

ill be the best hero in this world

ill do anything for you

gather rainbows to chase away your tears

can i just stay with you

and let our worries drift away

got to admit you got me speechless, so captivated

no way i, no i cant even remember my name

i cant seem to figure out why im smiling

now that im just staring at your face

watching a movie

i cant seem to figure out why im happy

now that im just staring at your face

drinkin your iced tea

your eveything i ever wanted

your everything i ever needed

i found the reason to smile with you here by my side

your my moon later when it gets dark

your my sunrise to start my day

youre everything i cant live without

the reason why im smiling

SONG #02

if i told you tonight, that i love you so. would you believe
or just think that I'm totally out of my mind.
and so you're right, I'm going insane
with the thought of you, smiling back, feeling the same way too.
but dreams will stay as dreams, just a little dream

wondering how you're doing right now
i hope your doing fine, with him you're pacified
well, me. i'll be alright. go on girl
i just cant help lose my head
with the thought of you, smiling at him, missing him really bad.
just like i miss you so, just like i love you.

i wont go to bed without knowing that you're fine
i'll be watching you till the sun is up.
i'd spend my whole life just to make you smile
just to make sure you'll have the sweetest dreams

i tried to find my way back home
but the street lights seem to lead to you
how i wish i was him.

and i tried to step away
i found myself at your doorsteps
how i wish i was him.

i wont go to bed without knowing that you're fine
i'll be watching you till the sun is up.
i'd spend my whole life just to make you smile
just to make sure you'll have the sweetest dreams

tell me im just thinking too much
tell me i am, then don't wake me up.

The end of our roads will meet

2009-03-24T16:10:00.002+08:00

See title...

That's probably the reason why God made the world round. So that even if two people who are meant to be together turned their backs on each other, there will still be a huge chance that their roads will meet. And maybe, just maybe, when that day comes, they will walk together until they grow old. Oh my Lord, I am being my cheesy self again.

Anyway...

I updated STUFFS section already. I only posted 3 icons there because I am too lazy to make more icons. Maybe tonight I'll be making some. They say it's a bit plain. Well, I really wanted them to be plain and neat. Sorry if some of you don't find them that pretty. I'll make some that are colorful.

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Why prolong the agony? I SHOULD MOVE ON.

You’re my first love, the kind that only happens once.

2009-03-24T12:03:00.010+08:00

"I will always love you." is just a cliche.

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It's my fault, I know. I'm really sorry. I will miss you and I will think of you all the time. I will still ♥ you everyday. Kuleet will always be Kuleet.

I love you, my somewhere over the rainbow.

Today is makeover day..

2009-03-23T16:46:00.007+08:00

Page makeover, that is.

I edited "ME" section again. Haha. I cant help it. I can't seem to be satisfied with plain texts so I used photoshop again. I also added some graphics and I already wrote my blogging history. You can read it in "SITE" page. :)

Lisa, thank you for the buttons !

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Dinner date canceled. I can't contact him. Been calling him since this morning but his phone is turned off. Tsk. There MUST be a good explanation for this.

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I am bored to death. HELP!

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EDIT EDIT EDIT:

Created new section ! "PLUG". Go post your buttons there. Dont forget to tag me.

Let's go to the beach and refuse to get a tan

2009-03-23T11:06:00.006+08:00

Just a short note:

I edited some stuffs in my page like the "ME" section. It's still kind of plain, though. I'll be editing it again soon. I have a new section called "STUFFS". I guess it's a temporary name because I have a feeling that I'll be changing it later. Hahaha. I keep changing my mind. It's my nature. Anyway, I'll work on that part some time this week.

I am really hungry right now so I have to sneak in to the kitchen and see what my mom is cooking. Bye ! :)

EDIT EDIT EDIT:
I just put another section named "SITE". I will be writing there my blogging history. I'll work on that tonight. :)

Little Sharing: The aircondition in my room is fixed already ! My lolo and mom's "tauhan" just finished fixing it. :)

STILL NO FOOD ! I am starving. Bye !

Rain outside my window falling down.

2009-03-22T22:23:00.004+08:00

There's something wrong... again ! Why can't things just go my way? I am torn between two choices. Those are my least favorite options ever. What are they ? It's for me to know and for you to not guess.

Hint: Either ways, I will get hurt.

Anyway, I had the same old boring day. Him & I are supposed to meet up but Tita-slash-driver had some other important things to attend to so the date has to be postponed. Tsk. I will meet him up tomorrow, though. Dinner at my house ! Yey !

"There comes a time when we feel we found the perfect person for us but oftentimes the situation isn’t easy. The hardest part is not letting go of the feeling but trying to live without that certain piece that could have completed us, that no matter how many relationships we’ll have, no one can replace that special person we’ll forever dream of."

Save yourself

2009-03-21T16:28:00.002+08:00

Health - Very Very Important Tips

♥ Answer the phone by LEFT ear.
♥ Do not drink coffee TWICE a day.
♥ Do not take pills with COOL water.
♥ Do not have HUGE meals after 5pm.
♥ Reduce the amount of OILY food you consume.
♥ Drink more WATER in the morning, less at night.
♥ Keep your distance from hand phone CHARGERS.
♥ Do not use headphones/earphone for LONG period of time.
♥ Best sleeping time is from 10pm at night to 6am in the morning.
♥ Do not lie down immediately after taking medicine.
♥ When battery is down to the LAST grid/bar, do not answer the phone as the radiation
is 1000 times.

I just came across this thing while I was browsing. ;)

Baby you turn the temperature hotter

2009-03-21T14:26:00.006+08:00

Finals is totally over. Thank God. But the last two exams we took really made my head ache. Especially JAVA ! It was really difficult. Well, for me it is. My absences in that class are more than the days I was present. Hahaha. But yeah, it really made my brain hurt. Upon receiving the test paper, Bianca and I gave each the other the how-are-we-supposed-to-answer-this-test look. We kinda managed to answer it, though. But with the help of the quote we live by "It's better to cheat than to repeat." ;) Haha. Anyway, DBMS was fine. Still difficult but nowhere near JAVA. JAVA makes our lives complicated. :))

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I went home right after the exams because I can no longer take the heat. Ugh. It's really hot out there !

Anyhoo... I have a week to rest. Yes, JUST A WEEK. Summer class will start on March 30. So yeah, I will make the most out of this one-week-vacation. :)

HAVE A GOOD SUMMER !

"Most people believe that 'I LOVE YOU' is the best thing you can say to somebody. I have learned that 'I LOVE YOU TOO' has a greater impact on the human heart. Anybody can get an 'I LOVE YOU' but fewer get an 'I LOVE YOU TOO'. "

Tayong Dalawa...

2009-03-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

What a cheesy title. Hahaha. I am watching kasi Tayong Dalawa. Not a kimerald fan, ok? Hahah. :))

New blog layout ! Wooohooo ! :D Anyway, I have to go now. I have two final exams tomorrow ( i said that already on the previous post ) and both are majors. I haven't studied yet, though. That's not something new. ;)

Good night !

" High heels (High heels). Red dress (Red dress ! *Nick's sexiest voice ever* ) "

You're the missing piece I need...

2009-03-20T18:45:00.002+08:00

I watched Camp Rock... AGAIN ! Bianca's right. This is Obsessive Jonas Disorder. :)))) Done with Edward Cullen, eh ? Hahaha. Anyway, Joe's one of the cutest guy God has ever created. :))) Demi Lovato's pretty but she moves a lot when she sings. And I mean, a lot. ;) Oh well.

"You're the voice inside my head. The reason that I'm singing, I need to find you. I gotta find you."

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I need to babysit my little cousins. Gotta go now. Gotta find you. :))) WHATEVER. Bye !

You turn the temperature hotter

2009-03-20T13:51:00.004+08:00

I got home from school early. It's too hot outside so I prefer to lock myself in my room. Anyway, I took two final exams today. I think I did fine. Two more exams tomorrow and this semester is totally over. Off to third year college !

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"I'm slipping into the lava. And I'm trying to keep from going under. Baby you turn the temperature hotter. I'm burning up. Burning up for you baby."

It's called Burning Up by The Jonas Brothers. :)))

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CHANGED MY BLOG URL.
from: sweetsugarhiccup.blogspot.com
to: strawberryhiccup.blogspot.com

RELINK ! :)

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I cant think of anything to say anymore. Im'na bloghop na lang. :)

Bye !

I am a genius because...

2009-03-19T22:15:00.004+08:00

Summer will officially start in a week. But my summer vacation is still more than a month away. Yes, unfortunately, I do have summer class. Not that I failed a subject. It's just part of the sucky curriculum.

Why is life this unfair ?

Anyway, I'm supposed to be ~~sleeping~~studying right now because I still have exams tomorrow but here I am blogging. Oh well.

Wish me luck.

" They say, 'Smart people usually have stupid hearts.'
I say, 'With the rate my stupid heart is going,
damn I must be a freaking genius.' "

Hey hey you you ! I LOVE YOU ! ♥

Another sweet summer

2009-03-19T19:09:00.002+08:00

Yey for my new header ! Hahaha. I like this one better. I put my favorite part in Thinking Of You. Can you see it ? ;) The new header has flaws, though. Tsk. It's only when I hosted it that I've noticed the flaws and I am too lazy to edit it. Hahaha.

So anyway, SPEECH CLASS IS OVER. YEY ! I got 90/100 for the finals. I lack gestures. I was too shy to move but I believe I delivered the speech well. So it's okay. ;)

I am happy right now. And contented. Things are better. YEY again ! ;)

I said YEY thrice in this blog. Now it's four times. Bye !

If you need space, go to NASA babe.

2009-03-18T19:12:00.003+08:00

i guess we're back to let-us-pretend-we-dont-know-each-other-and-do-whatever-we-want-to-do situation. that's the last situation i want to be in, actually. but i think i have no choice. i dont want to interrogate anymore because apparently, i dont get the right answers.

--

Just so you know, I MISS YOU.

" [insert sweet quote here] "

Ugh. Sorry. I can’t find a quote sweet enough for you. Btw, I MISS YOU. I think I said that already.

Bye !

Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbotrons, giant words in sky writing.

2009-03-18T14:26:00.003+08:00

"Kahit ikaw ay parang batong manhid at walang pakiramdam, magingat- ingat ka naman dahil kahit ganyan ka, hindi nasasaktan kaya mo namang makasakit." -Bob Ong

LIVE LONG, BOB ONG ! :)))

I was doing a new layout for my page and then Adobe Photoshop stopped responding, the window closed and poof ! Goodbye new layout ! I was halfway there to a new page skin but screw Photoshop ! :(

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You can see that I am really bored. I blogged just an hour ago and here I am again. Beg off. This is my own little planet. You have to deal with all my blah blahs whenever you are here. But right now, I'm kind enough to not ask you to read a novel so I'm ending this, like, RIGHT NOW.

Strong and wild. Slow and Easy. Heart and Soul.

2009-03-18T13:14:00.003+08:00

I'm currently thinking of a new song that'll be my new LSS. Haha. But I can't seem to think of any. I'm still singing Thinking of You in my head. How can it be so saddening? Is it the saddest song ever written that I can't think of anything sadder than that? "He kissed my lips. I taste your mouth." Well, maybe it really is the saddest song so far. I love you Katy. You break hearts.

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Speech finals is tomorrow. I am both excited and nervous about it. I'd have to deliver my speech twice. Ugh.

I can't think of anything to blog about. Lucky you !

The summer sky don't mean a thing

2009-03-17T21:42:00.011+08:00

I've been singing "You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter. Like a hard candy with a surprise center. How do I get better once I've had the best. You said there's tons of fish in the water. So the waters I will test." since Sofi showed me the video of that song in her PSP. By the way, the song is called Thinking Of You by Katy Perry. Yes, Katy Perry sings heartbreaking songs, too. I have actually been liking that song the first time I watched the video in Myx but it's only today that I got LSSed. By the way again, the complete lyrics of that is below. I fell in love with it because it breaks my heart everytime I hear it. Yes, ironic.

Today's nothing different from my other days. It's plain simple and terrible as always. I really need to try new things out. Like what Atsi told me, "******* ka na kasi." And I was like, "Sino naman? Ayoko." No no, I'm not telling what ******* means. But it's not what you think if there's a green thing in that head of yours.

I want to write something else because I want to bore whoever is reading this which is probably Ardie or Erika or Nikkiaaaa or Rowen or Ching or Gab or any of my beloved Highschool mates or maybe even Bianca if she happens to drop by again. ;) HELLO BIANCA! You've discovered my secret world. ;) Don't tell the others my url. CHEERS ! Hahaha. Okay, I'm not making any sense anymore. So as much as I want to bore you MORE, I really have to go now. Not that I want to, c'mon, I LOVE BLOGGING, I just don't want you to hate me for being a nonsense person. So bye for now. ;)

** If you've reached this far, APPLAUSE ! APPLAUSE ! You're pretty incredible. I love you. ;)

I dont breakeven.

2009-03-16T16:23:00.003+08:00

so i guess he's right. we're better off this way. presently, i think so, too. i still love him, though. but i guess trying hard to fix everything will just make it worse. i will let time do it for us. :) i will just enjoy the friendship and refrain myself from thinking about all the things that hurt. i will be just fine like he is, i know. he said he still loves me. i believe him. he actually doesn't have to say. the feeling is just too strong that i know it won't fade away just like that. i know he'll always love me. :) i will hold on to that thought because it makes me stronger. :)

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i didn't go to school again. that isn't something new. i become lazier everyday. but i swear i'll attend all my classes tomorrow.

P.S.
I WON'T STOP LOVING YOU. ♥ SEE YOU SOON ;)

You're my favorite subject to talk about because I never run out of things to say.

2009-03-14T23:40:00.007+08:00

after all my dramatic posts, i think i'm going to be alright now. :) not that i have moved on 'cause i haven't. i won't. i don't want to. but because i'd rather see him happy without me than see him feeling terrible because of me. i guess that's LOVE. you prioritize his happiness more than your own. :) i've also realized that sometimes, to keep it together, you have to leave it alone. if he discovers that he'll do fine without me, then so be it. all i know now is that there's a reason why all these things happened. nevertheless, i'm glad and will always be glad that i have become part of his life as he has always been and will always be part of mine. =)

enjoy life. always smile.
show me that this sacrifice is all worth it.
i will forever stay in love with you.
you're still my most favorite person in the planet. ♥

"I had such a good reason to let go of you but one better to hang on."

i dont need a title. just kill me now.

2009-03-13T21:38:00.003+08:00

i want some updates ! tell me something i know nothing about. aside from the fact that the world's going to fall apart anytime soon. oops. is it really ? or just my own little world ?

sorry for the randomness. i am such a nonsense person. hate me now.

bye !

While i'm wide awake, he has no trouble sleeping.

2009-03-13T13:26:00.005+08:00

I wasn't able to go to school again because I overslept. Put the blame to whoever invented hard drinks and to that one special boy who... hmm, nevermind. Now I'm really going to fail Java. Talk about crap. Tsk.

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So I waited and waited... and waited for nothing. I really feel stupid right now. Especially last night. It's both funny and annoying how that person I love brings out all the stupidity in me. Ugh. I need a sweet long sleep. I am so stressed out. Really. I've been saying that for the last couple of days. I need to take a break from all the things that have been happening. I wasn't ready to face any of these. How could I be ready? I didn't even see them coming. :| Just when I thought everything's gonna be fine. :( Tsk. I NEED TO SHUTDOWN FOR AWHILE! And uhm... I need you.

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P.S.
I just changed my layout and my page song.

I touched it, I was burned

2009-03-12T16:29:00.004+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay....
-- thinking of you by katy perry

♥

it has been said and done. i heard what you needed to say. veering away is the only thing i could see to lessen the pain but that's the last thing i ever wanted to do so don't expect me to stay away. i will still be here. willing to be just a friend.

P.S.
Listen to the new song on this page. It's heart breaking.

the past 9 months of my life...

2009-03-10T22:41:00.004+08:00

I've been really stressed out these days. I don't know what I did to deserve this. Or perhaps, what I didn't do. Ugh. My life is a complete trash right now. Been trying to clear things up but I have no idea where to start. Haven't had a good sleep for a few weeks now. PLUS, I have so many things to do. TOP 3? Here...

TOP 3
-- memorize my 4-minute speech for my english class. it's my final exam. it won't be hard for me to memorize it, though because i wrote it. plus it's about teenage life so i can completely relate to it (that's why i chose that topic). i need not to memorize every word so yeah, that wouldn't be difficult. but yet, i am nervous about it. i have 1 day left.

TOP 2
-- do everything to pass my Java subject. i am sooo going to fail. :(

TOP 1
-- accept the fact that things aren't going my way right now. oh well, it never did. but this one that i am referring to is the hardest. i need to find out why it didn't work. i need to know what went wrong. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN THE LAST 9 MONTHS OF MY LIFE. i have to see and ask him what got into him that made him act this way. this one's the most complicated thing to do in my To-Do List.

"if only there's a place in our little world where we can shutdown and reboot."
-- this is a line from my speech

I AM JUST A TEENAGER ! GIVE ME A BREAK.

i missed the big city

2009-03-09T21:07:00.002+08:00

I WATCHED THE JONAS BROTHERS' CONCERT TODAY!
No, no. Not LIVE of course. But ALMOST :)) Watched it in Gateway this afternoon. 3D so it was like the real thing. ;)

Joe Jonas was superrr hot but only comes second to Nick. :) Nick Jonas is like the hottest thing in the planet. :) Hahahaha.

After watching, we went to Greenhills. I bought a top. That's all :))) Hahaha. And then hung out in Madison Square. ;)

I HAD FUN TODAY. But in spite of the all-day-long laughtrip, there's someone that I miss so badly.

"ABOT KAMAY NA KITA EH. NGAYON KA PA NAWALA."

the truth will set you free

2009-03-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

The least you can do is to tell me the truth.
Just tell me what went wrong.
Ready naman ako bumitaw eh.
Sabihin mo lang.
Madali ako kausap.

THE GOOD TIMES.

2009-03-02T20:55:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU ! = (

LOSER, I LOVE YOU :)

2009-02-27T19:43:00.003+08:00

IT ALL STARTED AS A CRUSH. Nothing more. Nothing less. I was so down and I needed somebody to talk to and he was there. I told him everything. And he listened to everything I said although most of the time, I didn't make any sense. Days have passed and his presence brought back my insanity. :) It's funny how I never thought of HIM + ME = LOVE. :) But yeah, HIM + ME = LOVELOVELOVE♥ 678 ü

i may be the corniest person in the world right now but i hope i made you smile :)

TAGALOG.

2009-02-27T15:23:00.002+08:00

HINDI KA BA NAPAPAGOD?
MAGHAPON AT MAGDAMAG KA KASING
TUMATAKBO SA ISIP KO.

i know this is, like, one of the corniest pick up line ever.
that's why right at this very moment, i am asking myself,
"did i just type that?"
and well yeah, i know why i did.
I'M IN LOVE. :)

pucha ang ang corny ko.

=))

ARDIE ARDIE ARDIE

2009-02-24T14:32:00.004+08:00

kasi ganito yan...

ayun.

now, dont even look at me.

2009-02-24T08:34:00.002+08:00

There's always gonna be that one person that no matter how long it has been or how badly that person have treated you, if that person says 'I love you', you'll always say it back.

i would know it's him...

...if he tells me he'll never leave me and then later, he's gone.
...if he forgets to greet me on my birthday.
...if he does something wrong to me but won't apologize.
...if he prefers playing the computer rather than talking to me.
...if he tells me he loves me and then later, he'll ignore me.
...if he gets mad when i call while he's doing something he claims to be important.
...if he promises to love me forever and then he'll fall in love with somebody else.

People keep on asking me if I believe in forever and I just laugh because with the way my life is going on right now, I don’t even believe in tomorrow.

just shoot me with one glance

2009-02-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

i would know it's him...

...if he makes fun of my mistakes and then tell me he loves me when i get mad.
...if he fills his music player with rnb songs because i'm into them.
...if he says that it's okay if i go out with my friends but deep inside him, he hates it.
...if he sings in the middle of a conversation.
...if he knows exactly what to say and do whenever i get my tantrums.
...if he shuts up when i nag at him
...if he calls me "kuleet" with the sweetest voice.
...if he asks me to sing and get mad because i wont.
...if he says he'll stay up late and the next thing i know, he has fallen asleep.
...if he knows the significance of 6, 7, 8.

♥

You know what’s nice when having a hang over? It is when your head aches more than your heart.

THE HEARTS ARE ALL OVER THE WORLD TONIGHT

2009-02-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES ! :)

ugh. that's so cheesy and mushy and SWEET. but then, what's with "HAPPY VALENTINES" if you're VALENTINE isn't beside you on that one special hearts day.

Oh well, I LOVE YOU MY VALENTINE :)

[ oo na, corny :))) ]

Nothing out of the ordinary. Dont ask why.

2009-02-10T19:34:00.004+08:00

Doesn't it suck big time when everyday becomes a routine? Yes i know. I've blogged about this already but yeah, I just cant get over the thought that all my todays are just the same as my yesterdays. Plus, I got inspired by a friend's blog [ Isay ! I miss you ! ]. So anyway, it's really frustrating how you want today to be different from the previous day but then, NOTHING SPECIAL HAPPENS. Nothing unforgettable.

I read a quote while I was browsing a while ago. It says: "At times your sad about what's going on with your life, just remember one permanent fact: EVERYTHING changes. Tomorrow might be different." Obviously, I DISAGREE.

...............................

Another thought..

It's really tiring to pretend everything's alright. I don't want to sound emo or anything but I guess there's no better way to express what I feel right now. So here goes...

...I FAKE SMILES ! Well, good thing that in this world, it's easier to fake a smile than to fall apart and cry and answer people's ever so famous question: WHY ARE YOU SAD?

Don't you just hate it when you try to sort through all complicated reasons why you're not fine? So to save your mind from doing so, just tell them everything's alright.

BUT HEY, THAT REALLY SUCKS, doesn't it ?

P.S.
I am not emo. I'm just sad. I don't know if there's a difference, though.

3 WORDS: DONT ASK WHY.

you love to sugar-coat almost everything you tell me and you're good at it

2009-02-06T18:24:00.003+08:00

i just miss everything ! but it's YOU i miss the most. talk to you soon ! i love you !

"Always make your absence felt, in such a way that somebody misses you. But let not your absence be so long that somebody starts learning to live without you."

forever love.

2009-02-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

i feel bad. terrible. miserable. awful. stupid. and any adjective synonymous to those i've mentioned, name it ! and i have everyone to blame for that sucky feeling.

i need to save myself

2009-02-03T06:44:00.004+08:00

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here

i didn't go to school today. OH. maybe i will later. again, MAYBE. i'm so lazy, i know. but can you blame me? i'm so sick of everything. i'm tired of doing the same old things over and over. take a bath in the morning... eat breakfast... go to school... bore myself to death in all my classes... daydream... laugh with friends... daydream... eat lunch... attend class again... go home... kill hours in front of my laptop... eat dinner... bath... laptop again... go to bed but won't sleep yet... force my self to sleep but ends up thinking about how life sucks and how i miss that one person where my ♥ belongs... and eventually, fall asleep... and you know what happens next.

when will it ever end? i mean, i need something new. SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN EVERYDAY. and i want my most favorite boy in the world, my Raphael ♥

How my SWEETIES affect my life.. :)

2009-02-01T18:02:00.003+08:00

I MISS HIGHSCHOOL SO MUCH THAT I'D GIVE IT ALL TO GO BACK TO THOSE DAYS WHERE I CAN BE THE HAPPY-GO-LUCKY-TO-HELL-WITH-YOU-PEOPLE ME.

And I miss my ladies big time !

So.. okay.. I'm going to make a list why i love this ladies.. :)

ALEKS - she's like my walking diary. she knows every inch of me. she thinks my thoughts, walks my walk, speaks my words. okay. that's creepy. but then, it's fascinating how two people can be so much alike, right? aleks is the bestest friend i have in the whole wide world. :)

ALISA - this frank yet sweet girl has a strong personality that makes me love her. we may rarely have long-hour conversations but i miss how she always tries to make us laugh especially during those senti days. i love you alisa! like a sister, i swear :)

ATSI - insanity is one of the things we have in common. we can talk about our dirtiest secret and not get ashamed of it. it's really cute how we always walk hand in hand. (note: we're not lesbians. ok?) i love you atsi with all the madness in me! :)

CLOD - she is like, one of my most favorite people in the world. i can spend 10 hours with her and never get bored even for just a sec. we can talk about everything. and i mean, EVERYTHING. i love you clod. i am currently missing those volleyball, mcdo and kwek-kwek days. :)

COULINNE - how can i forget coulinne? she never shuts up that's why i love her so much. it's just A-W-E-S-O-M-_ without her! i miss you coulinne! GET IN TOUCH WITH US!

DONA - one thing i love about her: she laughs at everything you say. we actually have that same attitude that's why we get along. :) i love you dudo despite of the stupidity. (which, by the way, i also have lots of ü)

GLENDALE - she's like a mom to everyone. i miss those highblood days of yours. :) that's your trademark. we all love you for that. :) i love you glendale! see you soon. (on our bday celeb. ü)

TRINA - childish? yes. but her words of wisdom never fail to inspire me. :) i miss you my tweena wose. i really do. :) i love you!

I LOVE YOU ALL AND I WISH TO SEE YOU EVERYONE REAL SOON!

**HUGGGSS**

Life is such a bitch...

2009-02-01T18:00:00.002+08:00

Despite the emotional stress i am going through, it's pretty cool to have great people in my life that make me feel better. My high school buddies, and my Raphael ♥. They're the ones I'd take a bullet for. The people I turn to when the gray clouds come rushing in. They can make me happy by just being here. They are my most treasured creatures in this world full of monsters.

Do i sound emo? Please say no.

TWO POINTS

2009-01-29T17:50:00.003+08:00

i'm trying to make this work. i take all the blames even though i know i am not at fault. i swallow my pride for survival’s sake. i deserve the best but i settled for less (okay, that rhymes. going back…) because this is what i call love. i am not doing anything wrong but i’m the one whose pillows are wet at night. i am doing everything i can possibly do but everything’s left unnoticed. i’m giving it all but i don’t receive any. when will i ever learn? biting more than i can chew has always been the stupidest mistake i do. it’s really frustrating how you start choking without anyone beside you to tap your back or give you a glass of water. ironically, it’s so funny how someone can tap your back but can’t stop the choking. (if you didn’t get what i mean, remove your ass from my blog). i just don’t know when this choking would stop. but i’m trying to stop it myself cause i bet no one’s going to do it for me. oh well, two points for being strong… two points for being strong.

P.S.
Bakit lahat ng kumpanya nagsasara ? Baka wala na ko abutan.

my favorite ladies

2009-01-25T21:31:00.006+08:00

after 2 years (literally), today is the only time me and my girls bonded again. :) coulinne wasn't there, though. so we're not considered complete. but at least, most of us were there. but the semi-reunion's venue is not really pleasant. we were in the hospital because claudine was confined due to an intolerable pain in her appendix. but despite her situation, we were still able to enjoy ourselves as we talked about... about everything ! :) i'm really happy :) i hope there's a next time. :)

get well soon clod ! we love you. :)

I LOVE YOU LADIES ! You know i'll always do. :)

Hahahah.

2009-01-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

eto na yun ?
eto na yung forever ? haha

2009-01-24T12:16:00.005+08:00

Let's talk about bitterness.

You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm standing by your bed
And searching t-to pull out your IV
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm fightin with myself
I can't hurt you even though you hurt me
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
Tryin to call a nurse but nobody can help you now
Let me see you try to live without me
Now wheres your heartbeat?
Flat line on the E-K-G

Rihanna's so good at this. Let's worship the bitterness goddess.

2009-01-23T11:49:00.000+08:00

i am hopeless.

feelings.

2009-01-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

No reason to stay
is a good reason to go.

velvet voice

2009-01-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

I've been trying to write something since this weekend but i can't seem to think of anything to write about. I don't want to talk about my feelings or mood because they snap every 5 minutes. It's not really something new. It's... It's so me.

Anyway...

I have a paper to work on. A speech for my Speech class. We'll be doing it in class so i need not to worry that much. FYI: It has to be humorous. I haven't thought of the perfect topic but i guess I'll be writing something about the teens nowadays. Whatever.

I need to hear that velvet voice.
No, i'm not talking about edward cullen.
I'm talking about RAPHAEL.

FUCK. Cool na ba ko?

2009-01-17T16:32:00.004+08:00

I just came across this picture online and I laughed to myself. I wonder why some people try to be COOL. :))

PINOY TAYO SABI NI NIKKI KAYA DAPAT TAYO MAGTAGALOG. Edi sige.

Nakakatawa kasi yung iba. Okay lang naman mag-english pero dapat yung natural lang. Hindi yung halatang nagmamaganda lang o yung tinatawag naten na "trying hard". Pag narinig mo naman mag-Ingles ang isang tao eh alam mo kung natural o nagmamaganda lang. Masabi lang na marunong mag-Ingles. Nakakatawa. Alam ko mahilig ako mag-Ingles at hindi naman sa dinidipensa ko ang sarili ko pero naniniwala naman ako na natural lang yung sakin kasi bata pa lang ako ganito na ko. Pero hindi naman ako katulad ng iba na akala mo hindi marunong magtagalog kasi halata naman na magaling ako magtagalog. Nakikipagusap ako ng tagalog sa mga kaibigan ko at pamilya. But I speak English once in a while. Para kasi saken mas madali mag sabi ng nararamdaman gamit ang nasabing banyagang wika. Wala naman akong masama na gusto iparating sa mga Inglisera. Eto lang, mag-Ingles ka, pero wag kang feelingera. Hindi lahat ng nagi-Ingles, COOL.

I'm not talking about anyone in particular. ;)
Sorry about the sarcasm. =)

I ONLY LISTEN TO LOVE SONGS

2009-01-16T23:11:00.002+08:00

talkshit.

right at this very moment, i feel like shouting. i am mad. angry. furious. and i feel really terrible. would you please stop saying you miss her if you don't mean it. i just felt the rush of a thousand heartbreaks. sounds like a movie line. whatever.

QUOTE:
"Sometimes I wish he'd be just like my dad always scared to lose me even though he knows I belong to him right from the start."

Look at this pretty thing :)

2009-01-15T18:35:00.002+08:00

LOOK AT THIS PRETTY THING ! :)

Random.

For the first time, i ran out of words. Lucky you ! :)

fall in love with the other half of the view

2009-01-13T18:09:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ - that made my day ! ;) thanks ! :)

-- i'm not yet through with my P.E. paper. and i am super lazy to continue. it's about BASKETBALL. BASKETBALL. BASKETBALL. gaahd. i don't play BASKETBALL. :(

so anyway, i'm LSSed again. (which always happens, by the way) but now with a different song.

"don't call me in the middle of the night no more. don't expect me to be there. don't think that it'll be the way it was before. no be-hey-beeeh. don't call me in the middle of the night no more. i'm not over you yet. and i dont want to be your friend."

i even listened to my voice on my headset during my speech class. im'ma good singer. ;) or at least in my dreams. :)

im'ma do my homework now.

done !

WHY PROLONG THE AGONY ?

2009-01-11T20:30:00.007+08:00

why don't you just tell her what's wrong ? why not tell her you don't want her anymore and you want to get her out of your life this instance. uhm, because you don't want to hurt her any longer ? well, newsflash, you're hurting her in ways you don't know. so just spit it out. she'll understand. she always understands. don't prolong her agony. just be a man.

it's really funny how the earth never opens up and swallows you when you want it to. screw earth !

LOOK ! I found something pretty :)

2009-01-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: Found it in my old blog. lol. See. I love making blog pages. ;) Go read. It's pretty, i tell you. :)

Dear [your name here],

I know at this time it might seem incomprehensible that despite the several times I lead you into believing it was promising, I suddenly threw you off the curb by this frustration and disappointment. I am sorry that I’ve caused you pain, but know that there’s a reason behind this and that I will never let you face obstacles you cannot withstand and if comes a trial where you falter, know that I will be by your side, within an arms reach for yours to hold on and as your Father, I will cradle you in my arms and tell you everything will be alright.

Know that I feel the hurt that you’re going through. This heartache has its purpose – to make you strong, to make you learn, to make you grow. You loved him and that in itself should not be forgotten, regretted or looked-down upon. Your love for him should be celebrated and cherished for through it you learned how to be selfless and how to love unconditionally despite any hindrance and short-comings.

This is my way telling you that you need to let go – for your own sake and the well-being of the one you love. Sooner or later you’ll understand the reason, but right now I know it’s difficult to realize my purpose. You can hate me, question me, and blame me, but just know that at times you’ll face disappointments only to appreciate the good times that has yet to come.

At this time, just let go and put your complete trust into my hands for I will never forsake you because my love for you cannot be measured. Surrender your broken heart, your heart aches, your pains and I will carry your burdens so that you can move on and love once again. Remember that in my own time, you will find the right one. He has yet to ask me for your hand and I, as a loving Father looking out for his daughter, will need to approve of him.

Maybe you will love once more or several more times. Perhaps with the same person or maybe with others. Whatever the case maybe, just love and don’t hold-back. If you get hurt, love again until you find that person that I intended for you who is worthy to be yours. No matter how many times you get hurt or how much it may hurt, just remember that you have your God to turn to – to comfort you, to listen to you, to take your pain away and to mend your heart anytime anywhere. Just close your eyes and begin with, “Dear God…” and I will be by your side.

From your loving Father in Heaven,

God

Reason. Realization.

2009-01-10T19:51:00.008+08:00

Been singing "And soon as you reach a better place, still I'll give the whole world to see your face. And I'm right here next to you. It feels like you gone too soon. The hardest thing to do is say bye bye..." since this afternoon. It plays over and over in my head for reason I don't know. Or maybe I don't need any reason. You know, I'm LSSed.

ANYHOOOOO..

I wonder why LIFE IS A BITCH TO MOST OF US. Hmp. And it gets bitchier everyday. Not that I am bitter or anything. It's just that... okay, okay. Maybe I am. But only a little... Fine ! Maybe a lot. But there's a reason for this bitterness. Let me just keep it to myself.

done !

Oh no, not yet. I forgot to say something. What is it ?
Hint: The reason.

~~ I realized that my life would suck big time without you. And I just realized that you are doing fine without me. Heartbreaking, really.

"If you just realize what I just realized then... blah blah.. lalala.. nanananana..."

done !

HOME ALONE

2009-01-09T16:46:00.002+08:00

so there. i am home alone. i wasn't able to go to school today because i woke up late. blame it to 3am-bedtime.

i know i am not bound to do anything productive today. i will probably be here in front of my laptop for the next 10 hours. gaahd. how boring can my life be? i should have gone to school. tsk. hey hey, did i just say that? oh well.

my lungs hurt. maybe i should quit smoking... NOT ! okay, so my lungs don't really hurt. but there's something in me that hurts. i just cant figure out which one. hey ! i know what you're thinking about. my ♥ ? i am so not referring to that. although, yeah, it hurts a bit. but then, who cares? well, i don't ! not anymore ! so, going back... one of my internal organs hurt. lol. or maybe it's just all in my mind. i don't know, really.

for the nth time in my life, i don't make sense. don't you just hate it when some people won't shut up? well if you do, i know you hate me right now. beg off.

done !